Friday, 1 April 2016

My Guest ~ R.A. Padmos


Release Date: 29th March
Publisher: Pride Publishing

Give Away
Anyone giving a reaction to this post has a chance of winning one of my booksa choice of an ebook under all my names.Winners choice. I do need an e-mail address for obvious reasons.  

I also write as: 
S.Dora for my M/M erotica 
Ella Laurance for my M/F erotica. 

Sometimes a man has to choose between two very different kinds of love. But what if there is no real choice?

When Stefan meets Adri, it is love at first sight. It does, however, take some time before he recognizes his own feelings. He’s a married man—a family man—with a strong sense of responsibility. In Dutch society of 1935, sex between men over the age of twenty-one might be legal, but acceptance is still a long way off.

As a working-class man without a steady job, he doesn’t have the means to ignore society’s rules and create his own little paradise in which both he and his lover can be together, without his family having to suffer poverty and shame. Despite all this, the lovers find a way to carve out moments of intimacy and happiness.

Then the Germans march into Holland and nothing will ever be the same again. The occupation, which will last five long years, offers both danger and chances, but choices have to be made—choices of the head and choices of the heart.

Readers might be interested to know that Stefan, Adri and others also play a role in The Bookshop, the story of bookseller Jakoba. 

Hidden in plain sight
My novel Unspoken is about a man, Stefan, who discovers his romantic and sexual attraction to another man out of the blue. He honestly had no idea it was even possible. He’s married to a total darling of a woman and they have three children, with a fourth one on its way.

And no, it’s not a friendship slowly growing into something more, a development not unusual in so-called gay for you stories. I don’t even consider Stefan as bisexual, though I can understand the confusion. But Unspoken isn’t about that.

Stefan’s body reacts with almost brutal honesty when he meets Adri for the very first time. It is as if it recognises the truth of its owner much sooner while the mind takes a lot longer to recognise what is going on.

If this would be a temporarily story, it wouldn’t work to have a gay man this naïve. But what if the story takes place in 1935, in a Dutch town? What if homosexuality is legal, but that’s practically the only positive thing that those that are “that way” can hope for? What if Stefan looks and behaves just like any working class man in a time when homosexual men are considered not quite masculine by much of the medical establishment? What if he’s able to perform his marital duties? (I know this doesn’t sound like a man having fun in bed, and that’s exactly what I mean to say)

Perhaps knowing all that, it’s no longer so hard to imagine why a man who falls so hard and so deep for another man, has been able to not even notice his own feelings until they hit him so hard he has no other choice then to deal with them. 

A small taste?
Even after a year, Stefan could hardly believe he was able to make another human being this happy simply by existing. The calm contentment of a marriage between two gentle souls who mean nothing but good things to each other, but without unrealistic dreams, the gratitude for healthy children, it had honestly meant something to him.

But then this had happened. Someone had come into his life, someone with lights in his eyes, who touched whatever he was curious about or greedy for, with a body that demanded to be touched back, and suddenly being content to get old and die knowing a good life had been lived was no longer enough.

About R.A.
In no particular order: woman, writer, in a relationship with my wife since 1981 (though we had to wait until 2001 until we could actually get married), mother of two grown sons, owner of cats (I can pretend, can’t I?), reader and a lot more.

I write in different genres under different names. I’m also S.Dora for my M/M erotica and Ella Laurance for my M/F erotica.

Find R.A. Here


  1. The book sounds fascinating I had no idea that "In Dutch society of 1935, sex between men over the age of twenty-one might be legal" I'm adding the book to my wish list.


    1. It was, as long as both partners were 21 or over. And that was the same for sex between men or women. As long as the "impressionable youth" were protected, it was considered a private matter, be it of a distasteful and sick nature. Things definitely have changed for the better since then.

  2. What an amazing post. There are not many books from this era that deal with MM. I am adding to my list for sure.
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    1. Thank you. It's not an usual subject, that's true.

  3. This is an interesting book. There aren't a lot of books that deal with this. I didn't even know there were places where homosexuality would be considered legal in the 30's, so this would definitely be an interesting read.


  4. Holland pretty much kept the law from the Napoleonic time, so at least in Holland and France it was legal. (though with different ages of consent than for straight couples, and with no legal protection at all)

  5. That is an unusual to me setting, Holland in 1935. I look forward to reading this. toastmasterkatherine(at)gmail(dot)com

    1. I can imagine that. I'm Dutch, but even I don't write all that often about typically Dutch history.