Thursday, 12 December 2013

EM Lynley ~ Gingerbread Palace.


Release Date: Dec 1
Available: Dreamspinner Press


Blurb:
A Week before Christmas, Alex Bancroft’s bakery goes up in flames. When he runs back inside after a dog, firefighter Kevin Flint has to rescue Alex—and Quincy—from the smoldering building, endangering them and inflaming Kevin’s resentment.

Now Alex can’t create the elaborate gingerbread house he donates to a foster-kids charity each year. Fire station 7 again comes to the rescue, offering their kitchen and their manpower.

Everyone but Kevin Flint, that is. A third-generation firefighter, he’s fearful of stepping too far out of the closet. So when his powerful physical attraction for Alex ends in a sizzling secret encounter in the firehouse, Kevin can’t push Alex far enough away, and Alex returns the cold shoulder.

After a change of heart, Kevin risks his life to prove he’s worthy of Alex’s affection, but without a Christmas miracle, their chances at sweet romance may go up in smoke.

Excerpt:
IT STARTED like any other call: the loudspeaker blaring through the station for Kevin Flint and the rest of Station 7’s B-shift firefighters to hop on the engines, don their gear, and go. They reached the area quickly, in less than five minutes. Kevin was new to this station and this part of town, but he’d been down this street before. It was filled with little cafes and boutiques, and now holiday decorations adorned the streetlights and shop fronts. The city closed the street off two Sundays a month. It was that kind of charming, upscale street. The kind most of the guys on this engine never visited.

Christmas was a week away, and the boutiques were packed: full of merchandise, shoppers, and flammable decorations. It was one of the worst weeks of the year. From atop Engine 21, Kevin could smell smoke before he even saw the flames as they approached the address, red-gold licks curling into the night sky from the upper story, illuminating the sidewalk. The cops had cordoned off the street, but bunches of gawkers gathered and stared. A few cheered as the engine stopped.

This one didn’t smell like the typical industrial fire or piney holiday tree conflagration. It smelled exactly like Christmas: aromas of ginger, cinnamon, and sugar and the acrid note of cookies left in the oven too long. The scents stirred up memories of warm kitchens and happy times.

Kevin glanced toward the building and noticed the sign: Bancroft’s Buns. He would have laughed at the name if the place weren’t burning down, but it explained the delectable base notes in the smoke. He wanted to get inside, but they wouldn’t go in until the IC—Incident Commander—Captain Riggs advised them on the situation and the layout of the building. The team huddled, in full gear, adrenaline racing, eager to get into the building.

“The fire started in the industrial kitchen, in back. Two teams approach from the front.” Captain Riggs pointed to Perez, Walsh, Taylor, and Dunne. “Flint and Gilbert, work with Engines 4 and 9 in the rear, mopping up behind their crew.”

“What are we looking at? Layout, materials, hazards?” Kevin asked as he and Gilbert and the captain jogged through the alley to join the engines and crew from Station 2.

“Oh, you’ve never been here? I forgot,” Captain Riggs replied. “The kitchen is in back, lots of possible accelerants from cooking ingredients. Upstairs there’s an apartment and a storeroom, with separate staircases. The storeroom is already involved, but the apartment looks like it hasn’t ignited.”

Kevin nodded and raced toward the first-due engines already parked in the rear of the building. The lot was half-full of cars. Odd for ten o’clock on a Wednesday night. The shop wasn’t even open.

Two ambulances had arrived and parked outside the collapse zone. Cops and EMTs herded bakery employees away from the building and toward the ambulances to be examined. Smoke billowed from the few windows, the scent much stronger here. Cinnamon, ginger, and vanilla made Kevin’s mouth water. He locked down his SCBA—self-contained breathing apparatus—and gave the OK to Gilbert, and he grabbed the first folds of hose and headed in, Gilbert hoisting the next section a few feet behind.

The burnt-sugar smell permeated even his mask, but the flames didn’t require much work. By the time they’d arrived, most of the flammable items in the kitchen had burned through and were smoldering, while the cement floor and heavy appliances were damaged by the heat but hadn’t burned. The storeroom upstairs was still on fire, and Kevin and Gilbert concentrated on making sure the downstairs fires were all extinguished. The retail storefront had barely been touched, thanks to a metal door separating it from the kitchen. It had contained the fire like a submarine door keeps water out of compartments, but the blaze had left the metal twisted and melted off its hinges, while causing only minor smoke damage.

Assured they had finished their tasks, Kevin and Gilbert had headed outside for a status update when the captain called all the crews out of the building. There were no visible flames, but some hot spots would undoubtedly flare up before their work was finished. They’d take a break and stick around to make sure.

With the water pumps relatively quiet and his SCBA mask off, Kevin could overhear random discussions as the firefighters sucked in fresh air and munched protein bars to replenish their energy before they went back in. He heard a few employees sobbing as they clustered around the ambulances. No serious injuries had been reported. Everyone had gotten out with little more than minor smoke-inhalation issues. Odd for there to be more than a dozen people working so late in a bakery. Maybe they had a lot of holiday orders to fill.

“Did someone get Quincy?” a man’s voice asked.

“Paul said he’d get him,” a woman replied.

“Paul’s in the other ambulance. I don’t see Quincy,” another woman responded.

“He’s still in my apartment,” the man said, his voice rising with concern.

Before Kevin or anyone else could react, the man had pulled away from the EMTs and rushed back into the building. Kevin was closest to the entrance, so he pulled his mask and helmet on and raced in after him. Smoke floated up from smoldering beams and pieces of wall and ceiling, but he caught up to the guy at the base of a staircase.

“Stop, sir. Go outside. I’ll handle this.”

“The dog. He’s in my apartment. I can hear him!” The guy pulled out of Kevin’s grasp and headed upstairs with Kevin right on his heels.

He knew what might happen before it did, and he wasn’t fast enough to stop it. The guy grabbed for the doorknob and pulled his hand back in shock. The metal knob was still hot from the fire, even if this area hadn’t burned. The stairs were scorched and damp, and Kevin didn’t have a good enough idea of how stable their supporting structure was. Neither of them should be here right now.

“Go outside. I’ll get your dog.”

“No.”

“Yes,” Kevin shouted. He couldn’t just drag the guy down the steps, but he wanted to. He shoved him out of the way and reached for the knob, warm even through his thick gloves. He could hear the dog whimpering on the other side.

When he opened the door, the Irish setter inside reared back in fear. Kevin knew he looked like a spaceman. He pulled the mask away to speak.

“Here, doggie. Come here.” He reached out and waited for the dog to come. “Quincy?”

No luck. Kevin went inside and the dog ran into the bedroom. There was smoke near the ceiling, but the dog had been safe at floor level. Kevin crouched after him, trying to keep his own lungs free of smoke without the SCBA on. “Quincy?” Still no luck.

“Hey, bakery guy!” Kevin shouted, wishing he didn’t have to. He hoped the guy was outside, safe, and not hovering.

“What? Where’s Quincy?”

“Still in the bedroom.” Kevin took a step into the room. He couldn’t fail to notice a feather boa—in rainbow colors—draped across the top of the mirror and a stack of magazines with buff, shirtless guys on the night table as he followed the sound of the dog’s thumping tail. He was under the bed.

The guy took a few paces into the room. “Quincy, we have to go now. Who wants a walkie?” he said in that tone people used to talk to dogs.

Kevin crouched on the floor and noticed a little basket on the lower shelf of the night table. Was that…? No, it couldn’t be. Or was it…? He looked again, thinking he’d spotted a thick black dildo. On third glance it was just a flashlight nestled with a couple of candles and a pack of matches. In winter the power went out fairly often in town, thanks to Christmas trees and people overdecorating their homes in garish lights. In fact, Kevin kept a flashlight and candles next to his bed too.

He reached under the bed and instead of feeling a piece of dog, he ended up with another magazine. Not a fashion or workout mag. This one deserved to be under the bed. He tossed it onto the bed and waved the guy over. Suddenly he looked a little redder in the face, but he bent down.

“Quincy!”

Kevin’s radio crackled. “Flint, what’s going on there? I’m sending someone in with you.”

“No,” he replied. “Just getting a dog. He’s scared, under the bed. Out in a minute tops.”

“Hurry up.”

“On the way.” He turned back to the guy. “You have ten seconds to get the dog or I’m carrying your crazy ass down those stairs. With or without the damned dog.”

“Oh, when you put it that way….” The guy’s voice was flirty, as if they weren’t in a building that might collapse at any second.

Below, Kevin heard a loud whooshing and cracking noise. Ceiling was falling down on the lower level. “Now.” He reached for the guy’s waist, ready to throw him over his shoulder—he’d probably really enjoy that, Kevin thought with even more anger.

“There’s a flare-up, Flint. Gilbert’s coming in with the hose to get you out,” the radio blared.

The guy crouched down, hand under the bed, and this time Kevin did grab his waist and start pulling him up, but the guy came out with his hand on the dog’s collar and swept the dog into his arms. Kevin bent down and grabbed the guy, pulling him onto his shoulders in a fireman’s carry, causing him to shout and drop Quincy on top of the bed. Kevin bundled up the shivering dog and made his way down the stairs. He’d forgotten to do up his mask, and smoke stung his eyes, nose, and throat.

The stairs were wetter and more slippery this time; Gilbert had doused them with water so the flare-up wouldn’t travel to the apartment. Kevin made his way down. Thankfully, neither the guy nor the dog squirmed. Apparently, both understood their lives were at risk now. Gilbert and two others had their hoses trained on their path to the door, and before they were clear, a piece of flaming ceiling fell. One of them aimed a low-powered stream of water at Kevin and his passengers, and they made it outside before anyone was injured.

He dumped the guy—now dripping wet—and the dog—also dripping wet—on the pavement past the fire truck outside the collapse zone.

“Th-thank you!” the bedraggled guy said.

“Fucking idiot!” Kevin couldn’t hold it in any longer. “Your stunt put three more lives at risk—not counting you. If it hadn’t been a dog, I would have been happy to let you go and get yourself killed.” Kevin couldn’t say any more because he started coughing. He’d inhaled more smoke than he thought. The burnt taste lingered in his throat and nostrils. Familiar, but he’d never get used to it.

EMTs ran toward them, one taking each of them and shuttling them to the bumper of the ambulance for a checkup. Gilbert and the captain came over to see how Kevin was.

“Flint, we need to talk when we get back to the station.” The captain had his thick eyebrows so drawn up they looked like one dark smudge across his forehead. Kevin figured he’d get in trouble for at least two reasons. One, for going after the guy without his gear secured properly and then for calling him a fucking idiot, even though everyone would agree that’s what he was. Kevin just nodded and the captain walked away.

While the EMTs asked him questions and checked his vitals, Kevin overheard snippets of the conversation between Dumbass Bakery Guy and his employees, punctuated by Dumbass’s coughing. Served him right to be suffering at least as much as Kevin was right now. His EMT was treating the burn on the bakery guy’s hand, wrapping it in bright white gauze.

“Alex, what happened to your hand?”

“A little burn. Nothing worse than I’d get in a typical day in the kitchen.”

The guy’s almost cheerful tone was at odds with his damp hair and wet shirt. He looked like something a cat would choose to leave outside in a rainstorm. But a handful of people came up to check on his condition and mother him. Mostly women. No surprise there. For some reason they flocked to gay men like this one. The one male employee had blond hair, short on the sides and longer up top in the twink style. The boyfriend? They didn’t seem too touchy-feely.

“Alex, how did it look inside? Will we be able to go back in, open before Christmas?”

“No, Bette, I don’t think so. It’s all just black and wet, from what I could see. Only my apartment seemed okay. Did you hear anything about the shop? Where’s Lacey?”

“There isn’t much damage there. And the storeroom? We had all the gingerbreads in there,” Bette said.

“Alex, I’m here! Your hand!” a girl, presumably Lacey, cried as she came up to the bakery guy—Alex. The girl had straight blonde hair and lots of visible piercings. She wore a bakery smock like the other employees.

“I don’t know. We’ll have to wait until they let me back in.”

“I’m afraid no one’s going in there until tomorrow.” The captain had come back to talk to the owner, though he threw a few warning glances in Kevin’s direction. “We need to watch for flare-ups tonight and then tomorrow send in the building inspectors and the arson crew.”

“Arson?” Lacey asked in a wavering voice. “Someone set the fire? Who? Why?”

“We don’t know anything for certain yet,” the captain replied. “We investigate everything.”

“I didn’t even see the fire start. Smelled burning, but in a bakery kitchen, it’s nothing surprising. It wasn’t until flames started creeping up the wall that I noticed,” Bakery Guy told the captain.

“You were in the kitchen at the time?”

“Yes, but….” Alex stopped. “I don’t remember.”

“You’re still feeling the effects of smoke inhalation and shock. We can wait until tomorrow to get a full statement. Can you have everyone who was inside come by the station in the morning for that?”

“Sure,” Alex said. “Unless I can open the shop?”

“Definitely not in the morning. No promises on when, though. I’ll let you know tomorrow.”

“Can I get inside my apartment?”

“Not tonight. Maybe not even tomorrow.” The captain patted the guy on the arm and went back to the rest of the firefighting crew.

Kevin tried to get up and follow, but the EMT wasn’t ready to release him. “You need to stay here until I say you’re okay to go back on duty.”

“I’m fine,” Kevin said, but he didn’t sound very convincing when he coughed after only those two words. The rest of the crew was going back inside to check for hot spots, and he was stuck on a gurney in the damned bus hooked up to a stupid machine. He was fine. A little cough wouldn’t hurt. He pulled the EKG things off and grabbed for his helmet, then marched back to the captain’s parking lot powwow with a deputy chief.

“Flint, did the EMT clear you?”

“Yes.”

The captain shook his head. “You’ve still got a wire hanging off your chest.”

The EMT who ran up behind Kevin didn’t make his lie any more believable.

“But I’m fine, Cap.”

“No, you’re not. You’re going to the hospital to get checked out, and don’t come back until you have a clean bill of health signed by a doctor. I think I’ll put you on the desk for this one. Handle the paperwork; liaise with the arson guys and the victim. By the time that’s done, you should be ready for active duty.”

“Aw, captain. I’m fine.” No one wanted desk duty or paperwork. And certainly not liaising with the idiot who apparently owned the place.

“That may be, but I want it in writing.”

The EMT tugged Kevin’s arm and brought him back to the ambulance. He thought he heard a few “little girl” comments from the other firefighters. He yanked his arm away from the EMT and strode back to the ambulance under his own power, grumbling under his breath all the ways he wanted to rip Dumbass Bakery Guy’s limbs apart.

If the desk duty wasn’t bad enough, those “little girl” comments ate at him. He couldn’t afford that kind of talk, even in joking. The last thing he needed was for the guys in his station to find out he was gay. It was his third station assignment in two years, and he needed to make this one work. Otherwise he’d been warned he might not get a fourth assignment. Even being one of the Flameproof Flints wouldn’t save his bacon.

He was a third generation firefighter in this city. His granddad had been Deputy Chief, and his father held that position now. If the current chief retired in time, his father would make chief. But he couldn’t be seen showing favoritism to his boys. Kevin and his brothers, two of them firefighters and the third a cop, had had to earn their stripes.

Dad was one tough son of a bitch. He barely spoke to Kevin anymore. Kevin wasn’t sure whether it was because he hadn’t proven himself as a firefighter compared to his two older brothers. They couldn’t put a foot wrong, and Kevin couldn’t put one right as far as Dad was concerned.

Or maybe it had to do with the time Dad caught Kevin on his bed with another boy when he was fourteen. He threw the other kid out, but never discussed the occurrence with Kevin. His mom had come upstairs and given him a hug. “I love you, Kevin. I’m here if you want to talk.”

Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell was alive and well in their house, even now. That was fine with Kevin. He wasn’t about to broadcast being gay to his fellow firefighters. He’d left his last station because one of them had seen him coming out of a gay bar in the next town over. He couldn’t take the risk.

“Flint, the bus is ready to take you to the hospital. Get your ass in there!” The captain left no room for discussion, and Kevin followed directions. An EMT helped him up the steps and sat him on a gurney. “Buckle up.” She hopped out and that’s when Kevin noticed he wasn’t alone.

Sitting on the other gurney, shirt open and a web of wires attached to his bare chest, was Dumbass Bakery Guy. Underneath that damp pastel blue shirt the guy had a smooth, gorgeous chest with large pink nipples, peaked from the December chill. Kevin’s gaze lingered for a few moments before he glanced up at the guy’s face, and into his bright blue eyes, partially covered by long, damp bangs.

Dumbass Bakery Guy was pretty fucking hot. And he noticed Kevin staring and smiled. “Thank you. And I don’t just mean for saving me and the dog.” The flirty tone left no doubt that he wouldn’t mind showing some appreciation.

So much for keeping a low profile and not taking any risks. He’d be all over this guy if they’d met at Rangers or another club, but the guy was too much of a dumbass for Kevin to take a stupid risk over him. But it didn’t stop Kevin from wondering what his lips would taste like, or what kind of sound he’d make when Kevin sucked on one of those juicy-looking nipples.

If, not when. What the hell was he thinking? This idiot had almost gotten himself and Kevin killed. And he had gotten Kevin a reprimand. He suspected the desk assignment was more for punishment than because Kevin wasn’t physically able to do his job.

“We didn’t get to meet formally. I’m Alex Bancroft. I own Bancroft’s Buns.”

Kevin glared at him and lay back on the gurney. He closed his eyes and threw an arm over his face to block out the light. Why couldn’t he get the image of Alex Bancroft dripping wet out of his mind? The blue shirt clung to his upper body, the nipples tight, hard buds. Only this time they weren’t in the burned-out shell of his bakery kitchen; they were in Kevin’s shower, and he was peeling the shirt back from Alex’s shoulders.

Kevin felt his cock swelling at the image. Thank God he was still wearing his turnout pants.

The siren stopped wailing and Kevin knew they were within a block of the hospital, a quiet zone. A minute later the ambulance stopped and the back door opened. The EMTs took Bancroft out on the gurney, but as they popped the wheels out, he turned around to face Kevin.

“The captain said you’ll be handling my investigation. So I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Fucking dumbass, Kevin said over and over to himself. And now he couldn’t avoid the guy without pissing off his new captain.

* * * *

IN THE hospital Alex Bancroft waited for a doctor to come by and check him out. His throat still burned, but he only coughed a little now and then. He hoped he wouldn’t have to stay overnight. Things really couldn’t get much worse than they were right now. The fire had been the scariest thing he’d been through in his entire life. Maybe not the scariest, but close. Certainly the worst thing that had happened in many years.

At least no one was hurt. That was the most important thing. But from what he’d seen, the kitchen was completely destroyed and part of the roof had fallen in. He wished he hadn’t seen it, though it would look even worse in the daylight. He’d go back first thing in the morning and get whatever information he could. He had to find out when he could start repairs so he could open again.

While he waited, Lacey came to sit with him.

“How’d you get in here, Lace?”

“I lied and said I was your sister.”

She was in spirit, if not legally. “You’re blonde. How did anyone believe that?”

“No one has their natural hair color anymore. The triage nurse just waved me through. I must not have looked like much of a threat.” She grinned. She had colorful tattoos down both arms, but with her chef’s smock on, no one could see. She had a nose and lip piercing and about ten piercings on just one ear. She probably set the hospital metal detector off. He knew of more than one other piercing she couldn’t easily remove in public.

“Thanks for coming. I hate hospitals.”

“I know. Besides, what else was I going to do?” She sat on the edge of the bed and planted a kiss on his forehead. She wiped at his face with a thumb.

“You’ve got soot on you.” Then she started crying so softly only he could tell. He’d heard it so many times before. “And your hand!” She glanced down at the bandages. He wished she hadn’t reminded him. It hurt. Throbbed. They’d given him a pain pill in the ambulance and it hadn’t stopped the pain. He wondered how much it would hurt if he hadn’t swallowed the pill. He had to stop thinking like that.

“Hey, I’m the one in the hospital ER. Why are you crying?”

“Alex, I was so scared. The fire was… awful. I-I-I—”

“I know.” He reached up to cradle her in his arms the best he could while he was lying down with a bandaged hand. Hot tears dripped onto his face, and he held on tighter.

“We’ve been through worse. We’ll get through this. We’re safe. Everyone is safe.”

“I know.” She sobbed.

“Where’s Quincy?”

“Robbie has him. He’ll keep him tonight or as long as you want.”

“That’s good. I wish Marcia had asked him to look after Quincy in the first place. Then I wouldn’t have gone back after him. How could I have forgotten him? I feel so terrible. I’ll make him some special dog treats when…. I don’t know when. When the kitchen’s working again. Whenever that is.”

“You’re staying with me when you get out of here. Don’t try and refuse.”

“Don’t worry, I won’t. I can’t do much with this.” He held up the bandaged hand. “You might have to help me piss though. Can you do that?”

She sat up and looked him in the eye, then gave him a soft punch on the shoulder. “We’ll get you a pair of sweat pants so you won’t need any help in that department.”

“What kind of best friend are you?”

“I’m more like your sister than a friend. And sisters should not be touching a brother’s junk even for medical reasons.” She wiped the tears away and smiled. “Maybe you could get that hunky fireman who carried you out of the building to help….” She winked.

Alex frowned. “He’s hot, and not just in a burning building sort of way. But I think I ruined any chance of that.”

“Like there was a chance of that?” She grinned. “You think he’s gay?”

“I’m almost positive, based on the way he was checking me out in the ambulance. But he’s pretty annoyed at having to save me and Quincy. I tried to chat with him in the ambulance, and you know that phrase ‘if looks could kill’?”

“Yeah.”

“I’m at least six feet under.”

“Oh.”

“I don’t think it would have worked out under the best of circumstances.”

“What do you mean?”

He shrugged. She wouldn’t be able to understand how a guy in this day and age could be as far into the closet as Alex’s sexy rescuer. The way the guy was watching him in the ambulance made that abundantly clear. Alex didn’t have time for that. He’d never hidden who he was or who he wanted to be with. Even when he should have. Even when it got him in trouble. He’d been through so much because of it, and he’d never even consider a man who wasn’t capable of being himself.

The doctor came in and shooed Lacey out of the cubicle. She rechecked his vitals, unwrapped and looked at his hand, and ordered a chest X-ray.

“Doc, do I really need one? I’m not hurt except for my hand.” He dreaded getting X-rays. They usually required painful explanations.

“You’re coughing enough that I want to check for damage. Make sure you didn’t inhale any dangerous particles.”

“Okay.” He gave in and she left.

A nurse rebandaged his hand before an orderly wheeled him down the hall for the films. When that was over, they let Lacey back in to wait with him in the curtained cubicle. Sounds of more patients being wheeled in filled the air around them though they couldn’t see what was going on. He heard shouts from medical staff and the curtain fluttered a few times as someone ran for a more urgent case. It was over an hour before the doc came back in.

She gave him an appraising look, and he knew she’d spotted the old fractures and injuries. “Your lungs look fine. I’m prescribing you an inhaler to use if you have any residual coughing.” She paused and he silently thanked her for not mentioning anything else she’d seen. “You should have your regular doc see you in a couple of days to follow up on that. Rebandage the hand daily and keep it dry. I’ll give you a prescription for a topical pain gel, and one for pills.” She flipped through his chart again and looked back at him. “No allergies?”

“No.”

“Okay.” She grabbed a laptop from the counter and tapped a bunch of keys. “The release papers and prescriptions are printing. A nurse will bring those, have you sign a few things, and send you on your merry way.”

“Thanks, Doc.”

“Hey, Bancroft.” The doctor looked up from the chart again. “Are you related to Bancroft’s Buns?”

“Yeah, it’s my shop. Was. We had a fire tonight and….”

“Oh, I’m so sorry to hear that. I guess no one else was hurt, or I would have heard by now.”

“Just me, and a firefighter who came in with me for a checkup.”

“I love your cupcakes. All of them. I purposely avoid Third Street so I won’t be tempted, which is why I didn’t recognize you. But friends and colleagues bring them to me, and I just can’t say no.” She patted her thighs. “I should be saying no much more. But I always get a gingerbread man every Christmas. Any chance of those this year?”

Alex shook his head. “We were going to start selling them tomorrow, but they were lost in the fire. And with this”—he held up his bandaged hand—“I won’t be baking anytime soon.”

“I wish I could give you a pill for that—or to repair the bakery.” She gave a sad smile. “I’d say Happy Holidays, but that might be a little tricky this year.”

“Everyone’s okay, and that’s what counts.” He smiled back, but by now the meds were wearing off and the weight of what had happened started to sink in. He wanted to hurry up and get going so he could fill the prescription, but hiding behind pain meds wouldn’t do anyone any real good. He knew that from experience. “Happy Holidays to you.”

“Thanks.” The doctor got up, grabbed her laptop, and gave them a small wave as she left. The curtain fluttered behind her.

“We’ve got to figure out a way to do the gingerbread men this year. And the house. What about the house?” Lacey’s eyes widened. “We practiced it twice already! The auction’s five days away and we don’t have anything.”

Alex shook his head. “Don’t think about that now. We’ll find another way to help Home Sweet Home and the kids out. I’ll just make a cash donation to cover the amount the gingerbread cookies and house would bring.”

“How can you afford that when you don’t even know how much the repairs will cost?”

He hadn’t thought about the repairs. “Won’t the insurance cover it? Isn’t that why I pay for insurance?”

“You’re right. I forgot about that.” Her smile returned, though at a lower power than before. “The insurance should take care of everything.”

* * * *

THE next morning things looked even worse than Alex thought. Lacey drove him to the bakery after breakfast. There was a police car and another with a fire department logo on the door, but no one was in the parking lot.

The air smelled like burned wood and plastic and overbaked cookies. Even the slight winter crispness to the air didn’t cool down Alex’s anxiety as he raced toward the employee entrance. What was left of the door had been propped open with a chunk of wood.

Alex stepped inside. “Hello?”

“Who’s there?” A uniformed police officer wearing a hard hat moved swiftly toward the door, followed by the hunky firefighter and another man, both in uniforms. Alex tried not to notice how good his rescuer looked in the dark blue. He was wearing his helmet, so Alex couldn’t see his hair. The dark uniform would make the pale-brown hair look almost blond. He recalled that detail from the short trip in the ambulance, when the guy had his helmet off.

“Sir? Are you listening?” The cop was talking to him.

“What?”

“You are not allowed in here.”

“It’s my property. I’m the owner.”

“That doesn’t matter. The fire department is here to investigate and secure the site. You can’t come in here without protective headgear.”

“Give me a hat.”

“I can’t do that. I can detain you if you won’t leave voluntarily.”

“Wait outside, please,” Alex’s firefighter said. At least they were still on speaking terms. “We’re almost done.”

“Okay.” Alex turned toward the door. He could wait. He had nothing else to do. He wondered if he could open the shop. Outside he spoke to Lacey. “Let’s go around front and make sure the retail space is secured.”

The front of the shop looked almost untouched. There were a few dark smudges where smoke had come through the vents, but otherwise the place appeared fine. They could open, if they had anything to sell. Alex unlocked the front door and went behind the counter to flip on the lights.

Nothing happened.

“What’s wrong?” Lacey asked.

“They must have turned the power off. But if we can get it turned back on, we could open the shop.”

“That’s a great idea. But you gave everyone time off until after Christmas, remember? We don’t have any help even if we found another commercial kitchen.”

“We can figure something out, Lacey.” Alex got up and went to the refrigerator case containing soft drinks and grabbed a couple of bottles of peach tea. He handed one to Lacey. They sipped for a few minutes. Then Alex’s cell phone buzzed. It was the firemen. Alex and Lacey got up and walked to the back parking lot and waited to hear the worst.

“I’m Kevin Flint,” the hunky fireman introduced himself, but he didn’t shake hands or crack even a remote smile. Joe Friday on Dragnet looked like a party animal compared to this grim fellow.

“There’s severe structural damage. The place is unsafe for any occupants. You’ll need to secure the premises and have a contractor cover up the holes in the walls and roof to prevent any additional damage. The arson team will need a key and any combinations or security codes.”

“How long will that take?” Alex asked.

“A week or two. An investigator is in there now making a preliminary report, but until he does more tests, gets statements, et cetera, there won’t be a final determination of the cause.”

“I thought a cake must have caught fire in one of the ovens,” Lacey said.

“Save it for the report.”

“You’re not being very helpful,” Alex replied.

“We have processes and procedures. It requires following directions, though I can see you have trouble with that.”

“What does that mean?”

“We told you not to come in here last night….”

“I had to get the dog.”

“You should have thought of the dog sooner, or told one of the emergency workers. You don’t run into a burning building yourself.”

“It wasn’t burning at the time.”

“Look, Mr. Buns, uh, Bancroft, I don’t bake cakes and you don’t decide when a building is safe. Can we agree on that?”

“You really are a dick, aren’t you?” Lacey said. She got in Flint’s face and put her hand on his chest as if about to push him.

“Lacey…,” Alex said.

The cop came over. “Is there a problem here? Kev?”

Up close Alex noticed the cop’s nametag: FLINT. They looked like brothers. The cop was pretty hot too, but he’d already threatened to arrest Alex. Clearly the Flint family had it out for him.

“No problem, Tommy.”

“Can I get some files, records, some clothes? There’s a safe in the office and one in my apartment. Did they burn too?”

“No,” Fireman Flint said. “I’ll get you a hat and escort you while you take a few essentials out, but we’ll need to make sure none of it is evidence.”

“Fair enough.” Alex nodded, pleased hard-assed Flint had softened his tone however miniscule the improvement.

“Want to bring your dog in too?” Flint asked.

That ruined it. Alex officially hated the guy. What a damn shame.

Wednesday, 11 December 2013

Pelaam ~ All That Glistens

Release Date: December 11
Available: Wild City


Blurb:
Princess Citlali and her brother Taima discover that while someone can appear attractive on the outside, they may hide a heart of pure evil. Equally, Taima also finds that a rough and gruff appearance can house a love beyond anything he may have imagined.

When Taima is kidnapped it will take all of Citlali’s strength, and that of those who love her and Taima, to face and defeat a deadly foe. One who killed before, and will not hesitate to do so again. 

Excerpt:
Taima disliked the darkness and the suffocating heat as he descended into the bowels of the fortress where the huge furnaces were kept. However, several duende had informed him Hanne would be there. And so that’s where I am going. He glanced down at the container he held. He was glad he’d thought to cover it with a damp cloth. The cloth had already dried out a little because of the oppressive heat. 
He stood inside and stared. His people didn’t mine or do iron metalwork. They had talented gold and silversmiths, but Taima had never seen the likes of this in all his life. Several huge furnaces along the wall to his left, constantly fed the fuel they needed. Containers carried molten metal to banks of duende workers who hammered at anvils. The stench of sweat and metal was heavy in the air. 
Taking a deep breath, Taima moved forward, searching anxiously for the one face he wanted. He quickly noticed that those working the anvils only wore a thick, leather apron. He bit back a groan at the thought of Hanne, naked apart from the meagre covering. 
He spotted Hanne hammering mercilessly at a molten piece of iron, and for a moment or two all he could do was stand and stare. Rivulets of sweat ran down Hanne’s bronze, muscular, naked chest. His powerful arms rose and fell, muscles flexing with each movement. Taima licked at his lips which had gone dry, and not from the physical heat of the furnace room. 
Taima forced his feet to move, and approached Hanne. He ignored the ferocious glower from the big male. He quickly thrust the gift into Hanne’s hands and then turned and ran before Hanne could react. 
He skidded to a halt outside the furnace room, leaned against a wall for support, and took huge gulps of air to calm his heart that hammered in his chest, and his mind that had suddenly filled with so many whirling thoughts he was almost dizzy. For better or worse, the deed was done. Now I wait. 
**** 
Hanne stared at the covered item placed in his hands. Then he looked over at the muscular duende either side of him, who shook their heads, equally confused at what had happened. 
“Look at it, Hanne,” one said in thick, guttural tones.
 The words galvanised Hanne into action, and he removed the cover to stare at a delicate yellow flower planted in a small cup. 
“What does it mean, Hanne?” the other asked. 
“It means he won’t get any if he doesn’t go after the boy,” the first said with a raucous laugh. “Why are you still here gawping at it, man? Get after him.” 
Almost unthinkingly, Hanne removed his apron, tossed it aside, and strode naked towards the door. He ignored that loud guffaws from the duende he’d been working with. I am not going to run after him. His resolve lasted three more strides before he broke into a run.

Tuesday, 10 December 2013

Z.A. Maxfield ~ Lost & Found

Release Date: Out Now
Available: Riptide Publishing



Blurb:
Lost: one dog and two men in need of each other. Found: love.

RV resort security chief Ringo never believed in love at first sight. . .until he saw Gavin playing his sax on the beach for the tourists. But their on-again, off-again affair—even counting all the great makeup sex—doesn’t come close to the relationship he wants. All he really wants for Christmas is a commitment from Gavin.

Instead he discovers that Gavin has had surgery without telling him, so he lays down a relationship ultimatum while Gavin recuperates. Complicating matters even more, Gavin's beloved dog Bird runs away, and Gavin Blames Ringo for the disappearance

While Ringo throws every resource he has into finding Bird, he learns deeper truths about Gavin—how hard it is for him to trust and how little faith he has in love. Maybe if Ringo can find Bird, he can salvage Gavin’s faith. Maybe this Christmas, they can all find each other.

Publisher’s Note: 20% of all proceeds from this title are donated to the Ali Forney Center in New York, whose mission “is to protect lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, questioning (LGBTQ) youth from the harm of homelessness, and to support them in becoming safe and independent as they move from adolescence to adulthood.”
To learn more about this charity or to donate directly, please visit www.aliforneycenter.org.

Excerpt:
Chapter One
Ringo had knocked on Gavin’s door plenty of times. This time he had his heart in his throat. He could feel the cold chill of trouble coming same as he could feel the thunderheads that gathered out over the ocean, ready to pound the Newport Sands Resort with relentless rain.
Strings of Christmas icicles fluttered in the breeze along the edge of the RV’s awning. At night, they were pretty, but right now, in the weak afternoon light, they were cheap bits of dirty plastic Gavin kept up all year round.
He knocked again. “Gavin, it’s me, Ringo. Open up.”
After a minute or so, the flimsy metal door opened a crack. “What do you want?”
“Where’s Bird?”
“Bird? He’s inside.” Gavin opened the door the rest of the way, but didn’t come down the steps.
“He wasn’t inside an hour ago when he ran into someone’s RV after their cat.” Ringo shook his head. “Goddamn it, how many times do I have to tell you? You can’t just let that dog out to wander around.”
Irritation played over Gavin’s features. “What’s your damage, Ringo? So he pees on the grass. If he shits, I’m sorry. I’ll pick up some other dog’s shit sometime, as penance.”
Ringo folded his arms across his chest. “Some lady from the As said Bird scared her grandkids. She was hysterical.”
“Oh, well. If she’s from the As then—”
“Aw, Gav. Cut me some slack here, will you?” Ringo leaned in. He wasn’t above pleading a little. Gavin had more than once insinuated that the resort had different rules for people with better rigs or bigger wallets, which was bullshit. Everyone had to behave like they paid for a spot in the As. Ringo didn’t ride Gavin for half the shit Bird got up to, but he was forced to respond when Bird caused a mess. “This isn’t a trailer park, it’s the Newport Sands Resort. These RVs are multimillion-dollar land yachts and the people expect to be able to open their doors without your dog charging inside. If Bird leaves this rig, you have to go with him. You take him out on his leash from now on, or you keep him in.”
“Sir. Yes, sir.” Gavin saluted smartly. “No letting Bird out off leash.”
“It’s nothing personal. Management gets on me if they think I’m not doing my job—and they won’t hesitate to have your ass and your rig hauled out of here.”
“You couldn’t just leave the form letter I normally get when someone from your security team sees Bird off leash?”
Ringo was too embarrassed to meet Gavin’s eyes. “Don’t you just throw those away?”
“But nothing personal, right?”
Christ, there was everything personal between them. Ringo felt it in his gut and his heart and his empty goddamn bed. They hadn’t spoken in over a month and he’d missed Gavin every single day. But that’s not why he was here today. “No. Nothing personal.”
“If that’s all then, I’ll just haul my ass into my rig and—”
“Look.” Ringo raked a hand over his buzzed hair. “I don’t know why you gotta be like this. You never heard anyone say, ‘You can’t fight city hall’?”
“I hardly ever let Bird run, only when it’s absolutely necessary. And with it being Christmas, the park is half-empty anyway. You know people only say that city hall shit when the government is taking advantage.”
“You signed the lease. You know the rules. How is asking you to walk your own dog taking advantage?”
“Never mind. Message received and noted.”
Ringo sighed. “Why should the rest of us deal with Bird if you’re too fucking lazy to do it? While you’re wallowing, he’s scaring off the tourists.”
“Is that what you think?” Gavin eyed him sourly. “I’m wallowing?”
“I think you need to walk your dog on a leash, like everyone else around here. What if you let Bird out and he eats something bad? Even a lick of antifreeze could kill him. What if he gets into a fight with another dog? You need to think what your neglect could cost Bird, too.”
Ringo was about to turn away and leave when Gavin reached out and caught his arm. “Wait.”
“What?” Ringo took a step up toward Gavin. Even with another step between them, he was taller, especially since Gavin had a way of slouching lazily against his doorframe. His posture now was relaxed, and yet closed off. Typical.
Gavin sighed. “I did let him go out alone this morning. I couldn’t take him, so—”
“What do you mean, you couldn’t take him?” Ringo looked Gavin over closely and realized he didn’t just look tired, he appeared to be in pain.
Gavin grimaced. “Look, it’s nothing. Right now, I can’t take him out, is all.”
“Wait. What?” Ringo asked. “Did something happen? Are you sick?”
“No, I’m not sick. I finally had to have my knee repaired. I stepped in a hole on the beach the other day and tore it again. The doc said I didn’t have a choice anymore.” Gavin looked anywhere except into Ringo’s eyes. “I figured I had some time off between Christmas and New Year’s, might as well get it taken care of. But I just got home, and it’s been tougher than I thought, and I—”
“Jeez.” That’s why Ringo had seen Gavin come home in a cab the day before. Christ. Alone and hurting and you still won’t ask anyone for shit. “You couldn’t have told me that?”
“Why should I?”
“Because I’d have helped you. I’d have taken Bird out for you, for one. At least I can ask one of the interns—”
“I had that Jules kid take care of Bird yesterday, but I thought—” Gavin chewed his lower lip “—I don’t know what I thought.”
“Jules is a good kid, but he’s gone home until after New Year’s. Do you want me to see if I can get a couple of the other kids to take shifts? They can walk Bird until you’re well enough to do it yourself.”
Gavin gave a reluctant nod. “I’d appreciate that.”
Ringo sighed. “Goddamn it, Gavin. I’m only a phone call away. We’re not seeing each other anymore, but that doesn’t mean you can’t ask me for help if you need it.”
“I don’t know why you’re surprised I didn’t. We didn’t work out because you always tell me I don’t ask for enough.”
Ringo frowned at him. “I thought it was because I wanted to give you too much.”
They stood nearly nose to nose. Ringo could smell the warm, smoky campfire scent of Gavin’s skin, could feel desire building between them, even from that brief contact. But he couldn’t make Gavin meet his gaze.
He sighed. “I didn’t come here to autopsy us.”
“Not much left to dissect, is there?” Gavin wrapped his arms around himself. Maybe he was cold, and maybe he needed holding. Ringo had a lousy habit of wondering what Gavin needed, as opposed to just giving him what he asked for, and Gavin hated it.
God, Ringo wanted to hold him. He wanted to wrap himself around Gavin and never let go. How did everything between them always go to shit?
Instead, Ringo said, “Go back inside, you look like hell. I’ll ask around, or I’ll come back and walk Bird myself.”
“Ringo—”
“Don’t get your panties in a wad. Everybody has to learn to ask for help, just like every so often people ought to seek out someone who needs help and give it. It takes your mind off shit to look outside yourself for a change.”
Gavin snorted. “The Gospel According to St. Ringo.”
“Right.” A gentle tease, instead of Gavin’s customary porcupine spines. That was better. “Yeah. Well. Don’t knock it until you’ve tried it.”
“I’ve tried it.”
Ringo ignored that. “I’ll be back later. I’m assuming you have pain meds. What about food?”
“I’m fine.”
“I’m going to infuriate you by checking on you every so often, and I’m going to do it with hot meals. Just warning you ahead of time.”
“Ringo, don’t make this a big deal.” Gavin started back inside.
“Gav—” Ringo reached for him, but he jerked away. “Don’t make me pull information out of you like this. I need to know. Please, if you need me, call me.”
“And then what?”
Ringo shifted his weight from his right leg to his left. “What do you mean, and then what?”
“What would happen if I needed something?”
“I’d get you what you need. What do you mean what would happen?”
“What if I need to be left alone?”
“Do you really need to be left alone?” Ringo asked. “’Cause the Gavin who plays his sax at midnight because he knows I’ll have to come and tell him to knock it off loves my company. It’s the Gavin who pushes me out of his bed before dawn the next morning and tells me I’m—”
“Smothering,” Gavin snapped. “Hovering. Blocking the exits and taking up all my space.”
God, Ringo’s shoulders ached. “Just tell me what you need, Gav. What can I do for you?”
“Nothing. I’ll be fine.”
“Sure you will.” Ringo sighed. “I’ll see you later.”
Gavin lobbed him his slow-pitch softball smile, round and a little wobbly. Ringo guessed that was the best he was going to get. “See you.”
“Yeah.” Ringo nodded.
Ringo wished Gavin would say more, like he was looking forward to it, or he’d be glad for the company—something Ringo knew was true, even if Gavin would rather die than admit it—but if he waited for that, he’d stand there forever.
Instead, Ringo got in his golf cart and took off because it never paid to give Gavin even the gentlest squeeze. If Ringo squeezed, Gavin would slip through his fingers like a bar of soap, and they’d end up back at square one.
What do they mean by square one, anyway? Was that a reference to a game or the first stone on a path? The first bubble on the SATs or the first letter they turn on Wheel of Fortune?
Ringo’s square one was the very first time he’d seen Gavin playing saxophone for the summer crowd at the picnic tables. He’d looked like a young Carlos Santana in shades, with a mustache and a highly kissable soul patch. He’d worn a weathered fedora.
Gavin always wore a hat, but that was mostly because his hairline was receding. Ringo went along when Gavin pretended his hats were some kind of fashion statement. They were that too, from skull caps to stingy-brimmed straw fedoras to out-and-out wool felt mafioso lids, but Gavin kept his hair buzzed short and his head covered because he was vain about going bald.
The first time Ringo had seen him, he’d thought Gavin had stepped right out of the movies.
Central casting, get me a Latino street musician.
Ringo drove back toward his office, five miles per hour, waving at the tourists. Trying to look strong and silent. Reassuring, as if he were “the law” in this here town.
As if he were doing something besides pining for a guy who didn’t want him around.
His sister had warned him musicians were dogs, but Ringo had never listened.
God knew, Gavin was a musician. To paraphrase Ringo’s mother’s favorite poem, music was the thing with strings that perched in Gavin’s soul. Wherever Gavin went, he had to blow his horn or pick at his guitar or drum on the park benches and the trashcans with chopsticks. He bought instruments whenever he could, and he always had a half a dozen or so on his patio undergoing repairs. He was constantly tinkering with some broken guitar or refurbishing a brass instrument that needed a little TLC. He sold some on eBay, and some he got attached to.
What he couldn’t live without one day, he gave away the next.
Ringo stopped to bag up some garbage that had blown off a picnic table, and even that reminded him of Gavin: give Gavin a milk carton, a plastic fork, and a couple of rubber bands, and you’d get an entire symphony orchestra.
Gavin had warm golden skin and cold brown eyes, and he lived in a crappy camper because it made him feel free. He didn’t have to live like that; he liked it.
He drank too much, and he laughed too loud, and when Ringo got near the cracks in the shell Gavin had built around himself, Gavin chased him away like a junkyard dog. Gavin had a miserable fucking temper. He could lash out.
It hurt a lot to love a man like that.
Especially when Gavin was always the center of attention and could pick and choose from any man around. He never kept any of his lovers for long; he didn’t know how. He always seemed lonely to Ringo, even if he was rarely alone.
Ringo had pried his way into Gavin’s life through persistence and the judicious application of alcohol, and although they’d washed out, they still kept company sometimes. Lots of times.
Ringo always said that if he had it to do over again, he’d do it over again.
He pitched the trash he’d policed into the Dumpster as he rode by. Hole in one.
Whoopee.
That was probably his entire quota of “win” for the day, the rest of which would be spent filing incident reports and making sense of client complaints. He was responsible for lost or stolens, and there was one case of employee pilfering at the snack bar to deal with.
When he got back to the office, he shut himself inside for the better part of the morning, until a knock sounded at his door.
“Yeah?”
Jurgen, one of the interns, a college kid from Germany, entered and stood nervously in front of Ringo’s desk.
“You wanted to see me, sir?”
Ringo took off his reading glasses and rubbed his eyes. He was only thirty, but he couldn’t read without glasses for shit. It made him wonder if he was going to be like his nana, with her bottle-bottom trifocals, when he got old.
“You know the guy who lives in the Cs over by the laundry room, Gavin Lopez?”
“The musician?” Jurgen nodded. “Is there a problem?”
“Little bit. He’s out of commission for a few days because he had to have some knee surgery. Would you mind walking his dog? I’ll pay you, but don’t tell him I said anything about money.”
“I can do that.” The kid spoke English well, with little to no accent, and he was respectful and polite. The smile he gave Ringo was unforced.
“Maybe if you went first thing when you get to work, at lunch, and before you leave?”
“Sure.” Jurgen gave another bob of his head.
“The dog’s name is Bird. Let him run in the fenced off-leash area by the volleyball courts while you’re at lunch. Otherwise keep him on a leash at all times. Give him some exercise; he’s an energetic, curious pooch, so if he gets loose he’s likely to wander into people’s rigs.”
Jurgen smiled wryly. “I can see how that might create concerns.”
“I’ll let you know when to stop—just a few days probably. You’ll be here over the holidays, right?”
“Yes, I’ll be here. Is that all?”
“Yes, thank you.”
Once dismissed, Jurgen left. Ringo wondered what his story was, if he was studying for a career in hospitality, or if he just wanted to work in America for a while. The resort always had foreign interns as part of an exchange program with the local university. Whether they had aspirations to stay in the States, or just wanted a chance to work where they could surf and go to Disneyland and tour the beaches where Baywatch had been filmed, they came and went.
Jurgen seemed like a nice kid. He’d be good for Bird, and maybe Bird would be good for him.
When Ringo made his rounds later, he saw Jurgen and Bird on the beach together, Jurgen running along the water and Bird bounding happily along beside him in puppylike high spirits when he wasn’t busy chasing after sea birds. The sight warmed Ringo’s heart. A boy and a dog could be a beautiful thing.
He watched Jurgen play tug of war with Bird for a while, and then he continued on his rounds, making sure everyone was in their proper space. He liked to greet the campers and check in with the groundskeepers. He needed to make sure the empty cabins were locked up tight.
Since the economy was still in the shitter and the price of gas was at an all-time high, some of the resorts streets echoed with emptiness. The holidays hadn’t brought crowds to the resort the way they usually did, but they still had the die-hard snowbirds.
The size of the population didn’t matter, though. He had to keep security tight, and his crew had to stay dialed in to any potential problems so they could prevent mishaps or react quickly if they were needed.
A case of illegally dumped trash was the most he had to deal with before he sat down at his desk again after lunch to write up incident reports. His security detail for the day, Gunn and Frisbo, patrolled the grounds together while he caught up on paperwork.
Most days, their lives revolved around a series of small, inconsequential matters and the paperwork that went with them.
Most days were dead boring, but it went with the job.
Yessir, I am the sheriff in this here town. Evildoers, beware.
Chapter Two
Ringo watched as the sun dropped below the western horizon. All his minor irritations seemed to disappear with it.
Winter was his favorite season at the resort. Holiday lights brightened the darkness, shimmering in the algae-laden water like sunken treasure. Several of the fancier rigs were overdressed for the occasion, as tacky as they were festive, with mirror balls and singing Christmas trees.
Summers were crowded with people who drank too much. There were way too many small kids to watch out for. Summer gave Ringo ulcers. But in December the weather was mild and color scintillated everywhere, from the bright orange of fires on the beach, to the rigs, to the sparkling trunks of majestic palms wrapped halfway up with twinkle lights.
The glittered reflection of all that luminescence shivered on the water—balm to Ringo’s soul.
Ringo pulled his golf cart up next to Gavin’s place. He was sitting on a canvas lawn chair with one leg propped up, playing Christmas music on a ukulele. He had a good fire going in a black iron fire bowl with Kokopelli cutouts. Bird lay by his side, his muzzle draped contentedly over Gavin’s bare foot.
Ringo thought he’d probably lie down like that with his face on Gavin’s foot if Gavin would let him.
Gavin caught sight of him and lifted his chin. That was all the welcome Ringo was going to get, so he made the most of it. He got out of his cart and stepped onto Gavin’s woven hemp patio rug. He gave Gavin a light kiss on the top of his head in lieu of a greeting.
Gavin broke off playing to pick up his beer and take a swallow, then put it down to play some more. Ringo recognized “Winter Wonderland.”
“I brought you In-N-Out.” Ringo headed toward the door of Gavin’s RV. “Mind if I go in and get some plates and things?”
“Make yourself homely.” Gavin shifted slowly in his chair and grimaced with pain. “Help yourself to a brew while you’re in there.”
Gavin had a bag of peas cooling his knee. “You hurting?”
“Yeah.” Gavin shrugged. “I got pills, though.”
“Peas still cold?”
“I have another bag, maybe you could switch them since you’re going in . . .?”
“Sure.” Ringo plucked the bag off him. The knee itself didn’t look too bad from the outside. A little swelling, a little bruising. He probably had a couple of small incisions under the Band-Aids. Ringo went inside Gavin’s RV and got a fresh bag of peas from the freezer. He didn’t think he’d ever seen Gavin eat a pea. He must have kept them just for their medicinal benefit. While he was in there, he put their burgers and fries on paper plates and got himself a beer.
When he returned, he sat down in a camp chair opposite Gavin’s. Sure as shit, the smoke turned direction and headed his way. He waved and blinked his eyes. “Why does that always happen? No matter where I’m sitting, I get smoke in my face.”
“Smoke seeks out the pretty boys.” Gavin followed that up with a musical rimshot—bah dum bump—on his ukulele.
Ringo rolled his eyes. “So, you had arthroscopic surgery?”
“Yeah. I tore the meniscus. I got a video of the surgery if you want to watch it sometime. It looks like a tiny dragon is tearing off bits of cotton candy in the dark.”
“I’ll pass.” Ringo wasn’t much into that sort of thing. He’d seen all the blood and gore he’d needed to see in the Army. “Should you be drinking that if you’re taking pills?”
Gavin slanted an irritated look at him. “I only had one beer, mami. I’m fine.”
Ringo twisted the cap off his beer. “I like you better when you call me papi.”
Gavin narrowed his eyes at that. “So act like a man instead of smothering me.”
Ringo itched to twist Gavin’s neck. Why did Gavin always have to give him attitude when he was only checking in to make sure everything was okay? Gavin’d had surgery, for Christ’s sake. Why couldn’t Gavin tell him when things weren’t okay?
“You got plenty to eat for snacks and something to drink besides beer?”
“For today.” Gavin looked away. “But I could use some stuff.”
That’s new. Was Gavin asking for help with something? Had the world come to an end and nobody told Ringo? “Like what? I can make a list.”
“I need some first aid shit. Mine’s so old it’s moldy. I think it came with the rig.”
“Like bandages and antibacterial ointment?”
“Yeah.”
“What else? Bottled water? Coffee? Pop? Those cookies you like with the peanut butter?”
Gavin shot him a genuine smile. “You remember that?”
“Yeah.” Ringo felt his cheeks heat up. “I remember. Soft oatmeal with raisins too. You don’t like chocolate chip like normal people.”
“I like chocolate chip.”
“But they don’t make your eyes light up,” Ringo murmured.
Gavin sighed, and his fingers drifted into another song, this one in a minor key so it sounded a little sad.
Ringo shook his head and sat back. Gavin was right there in front of him. Was he feeling lonely? On more than one occasion, he’d used the intel Gavin’s restless musicality sent out and they’d ended up making out or in the sack, despite the fact that they weren’t together anymore.
Ringo generally acted on Gavin’s haunted, lonely music, not on his words, until one or the other of them burst the magic spell he’d woven.
Usually it was Ringo who messed up, and Gavin who chased him away.
Just now, Gavin was more than a little high. If Ringo pushed things, if he approached Gavin like Bird did—like he had a right to Gavin’s affection, or like he was just too dumb to know he wasn’t always so welcome—he’d be allowed to stay the night.
It might be worth it, just to see if he could make Gavin smile for a while.
“You should eat,” he said instead.
If Gavin was frozen inside his melancholy, then Ringo was caught in the web of his macho. He didn’t want to crawl on his knees and beg to be petted like a dog. He wanted Gavin to want him. To ask for what he wanted out loud with his words instead of his goddamn music.